Oh, I hate giving presentations. Not making them, that part comes easily. For whatever reason, God created me to have a silly exaggerated physical reaction to stress. Regardless of how much I prepare, how good my notes are, how many people are in the audience, stick me in a spotlight and ask me a question and I'm reduced to a quivering, pathetic mess (shakes head). For example, the history presentation I bombed this morning...
But that's ok. In fact, it's wonderful! (especially since I'm not being graded on it...) I need these constant reminders of how I can't do things on my own. One of the wonderful things about God's sovereignty is that I know ultimately, I did my best and as long as I trust Him and obey, everything will work out for my good and His glory. Some may call religion a crutch. It's not a crutch; it's my very life support. Without Christ and His atoning work, I have no hope. I'm a broken cistern that can't hold water, trying to dig out wells for myself in the desert, vainly chasing things that can't satisfy. He is my strength and redeemer. Where am I without Him? Even more pitiful and desperate than when I'm giving presentations. Resting in the arms of an all-powerful, loving God...it's where I long to be. Thank you Lord for being gracious enough to break and humble me so I can see your glory.
4 comments:
"It's not a crutch. It's life support." I loved that. Thanks for this post Kelsey! What a great reminder to keep trusting God in everything. It's something I know I need to do, but that's so hard to do. I need reminders all the time. So thanks... :)c
No worries, thanks for reading. =)
Well said sweatheart!
I love how your blog posts relate everyday things to deep theological truths, it's very encouraging.
"I need these constant reminders of how I can't do things on my own."
That's exactly what they're for...
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